This is the journey of a wife and mom on my way back to ME!!
The turning point for me was when my 3 year old son looked at me one day and said the one thing that broke my heart, but I needed to hear from someone else, "Momma, your tummy's so big"...that was it, all it took for me to realize I no longer recognized the person in the mirror. So I began day 1 at 295lbs and on my way back to ME!!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Day 11

Jillian just kicked my ASS!!! Just did The Biggest Loser, Last Chance workout DVD!! HOLY SHIT!! It totally sucked to get thru, but as always was totally worth when I finished!
This has been a busy week, and I really have not felt very productive. Definitely not like last week. Haven't gotten the chance to do my walk, which seems so pathetic, but it is an hour calorie burn, so I guess I just need to kick it into gear and do 2 videos a day if I don't get that in. So I am really pretty worried about the weigh in coming up! This is the first week of the WLC we signed up for as well, and that sucks for me, with the 11 lb drop last week.....I guess a loss is a loss, but I am really hoping for 5 lbs, but we will see?!?!?!
Food has been interesting this week as well, for the last 2 days I have had nowhere near my 1500 calorie intake. Yesterday was right around 1000 and today was only around 800...I wasn't trying to do that, just have been busier and having really thought about eating every couple of hours,..which on one hand is kind of a relief! I am sooooooooo tired of thinking about food, looking it up, calculating, measuring, adding, dividing..........UUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! I even do it in my sleep, last night was my worst night of sleep since Day 1, I tossed and turned all night cause I was portioning and calculating!!!! REALLY??!?!??!?!

Also, today was my first real "cheat"....went to Costco with the kids and had a jumbo hot dog and half a churro! So I will say they tasted soooooo good going down, but an hour later I felt like I had a giant rock in my stomach! It was awful!!! Not like I ate too much, just what it was, sitting there, it felt like it was going to be there FOREVER! So that was incentive enough not to eat like that again! In fact, while watching TBL last week, when Jillian had to eat all the fast food, I thought it was a load of crap of her overacting how bad it all was, but it was the truth with me....I could honestly FEEL the grease!

Well, fingers crossed for my next weigh in......

Thursday, January 14, 2010

...and the scale says?????????


I was desperately hoping for double digits...and I got it!!!!! WWWWOOOOOOO HHHHHOOOOOOO!!!


Today was my first weigh in and.........................I'VE LOST 11 POUNDS!! I am so thrilled! I was really really hoping for double digits, and I got it!!!! Amazingly, I don't feel like my week was all that rough, either! In all truth, I could have done more!!! And this week that is my goal! Go one step further then last week. Park at the end of all the parking lots, make my mall lap 30 seconds faster.....etc!!! Last night my Pops and I started a local weight loss challenge! It is 12 weeks, so hopefully this will all pay off.... literally!!! The winner gets 50% of the pot!!!

On a bummer note: My body bugg wouldn't upload last night, so I have to call tech services this am to try to get it all figured out! I really hope it is nothing big, cause I NEED it!!! Fingers Crossed!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Day 5

Had a rough start today, I was up with my daughter in the night, so when the alarm went off...UGH!!! But much to my surprise, I got up and moving and out the door pretty quickly....any other time I would have used it as excuse, went back to bed and hoped to get a workout in later! Point for Me!!! However, after getting home tired set in along with a pretty massive headache....that's when I knew this was going to be my first real test of commitment this time around!
Point for Me!! I made it!!! Good food choices all day and blew my calorie burn out of the water! Almost tripled my calorie deficit again today! (ps...all terms from my Body Bugg system) Still not missing the Dr.Pepper, don't know how that is possible considering it was probably running thru my veins, and really not feeling hungry all the time...that was just Day 1.

T-Minus 3 days 'till I get on the scale again! Could this week go any slower? How is it when I was sitting on my fat butt all day the days seemed to fly, but the more active I get the slower time goes. At this rate my 12 week challenge is never going to end. Anyway, I am dying to get on the scale, I am riding a wave of excitement right now, but I need to see some pounds come off to really keep me motivated!

Hello everyone (or maybe just me)!!

So mainly I started this cause I am pretty sure that I am driving my family crazy! I am sure that if they have to hear, "do you know how many calories there are in ......" they are gonna shoot themselves! Don't get me wrong, I have one of the most supportive families that are out there, it is just difficult because I am really the only one going thru it! Cause for me, I have to talk about it, plan it, schedule it and then talk about it keeps me focused! That makes me sound like I have some serious OCD tendencies, but if you could see my house, you would know differently!!! So here I am...talking to no one, or everyone..